Well, I’ve pretty much had under 3 hours sleep last night. So…let’s see how I go with this post. Apologies in advance if there’s any extra emotions or anxiousness.
Firstly, thanks to everyone who said they really enjoyed having a read of my blog. Not only does it mean I know I have to keep posting and that people will read (eeeek!), but someone said to me this week that around our busy lives, we sometimes don’t have much time to catch up with people; hence, a blog is a great way to connect and find out what’s going on with someone, especially if they’re not openly discussing it. So yeah, thanks to those who read, and I might start putting up things more opinionated that happen to me during the week.
-Gym is going well. I’m finally feeling really good once I finish a work out. I’m hoping I’ll see some results soon.
-Checking levels for my diabetes is still on track..and am still following up on sorting these with my doctors.
-Still no soft drink! This is pretty epic!
-One things that’s become really apparent to me this week is that I have to work on just “going with the flow” and not being as anxious/lacking confidence in situations which are out of my control. Ever since high school when a teacher told me I was “highly strung (but in a good way, apparently?) I’ve always had an issue with stressing out…particularly with giving myself a hard time when I think I could have done better at something. Or maybe I’ve had it even before high school…who knows if I was some anxious stresshead in kindergarten freaking out as I coloured out of the lines, lol. It’s just been eating away at me this week, causing big bouts of lack of sleep. I just wish I could flick a switch and get rid of the anxiety that I suffer from a lot of the time…however, I guess it’s a part of me that I have to accept and work on. I’m just really trying to find ways to manage it lately…with many things being uncertain around me, it’s hard. I just want to know that my future is secure for a couple of things so I can embrace the present and future. For now, I guess I’ll just keep positing those motivational images and hope for the best…and hope people accept me as the “anxious ginger” for now.
-You know what’s been annoying for the past few weeks? Over the past 6 months, I finally found a makeup brand that matches my pale/unpredictable skin and doesn’t make me break out, while being mineral based. Physicians Formula makes incredible powders-their Magic Mozaic power is literally like Photoshop for your face. I kid you not: once I put this on in the morning I feel like I’m ready to be seen. So, Physicians Formula can be purchased from Priceline…however of recent, their brand has been disappearing from many Pricelines. Over the past few months, I’ve been to 6 Pricelines and the only one which stocks it is Liverpool, which is pretty disappointing. I’ve tried Ebay and there’s none of the pale/translucent shades I need, and the Priceline online store is quite limited. I’ve sent them an email asking if they can advise about where it’s stocked, and found out it’s only at Liverpool. So…I will now have regular pilgrimages to Liverpool to obtain the face powder of epic proportions, lol.
-I’ve discovered a new range of skincare cleansers which I love (and I’m also facepalming myself questioning why I didn’t try them sooner!) LUSH Cosmetics are organic, naturally made cleansers which smell amazing and make your face feel incredible. I was seeing people rave about the “Dark Angel” cleanser on Pinterest…it’s made up of Clay and…Charcoal. Yep…you read right, Charcoal. However, this exfoliant makes your skin feel so so so soft and help clear up any skin imperfections. Anyway, I had to try it. Not only did they have very friendly staff at the Parramatta store I went to, but I also purchased the “Herbalism” cleanser for daily use. My skin has been feeling awesome for days and it’s helping my skin to settle down. Seriously, I recommend their stuff to anyone.
-I keep running into people from High School at the gym, however the other week there was a guy from school there who (during high school) gave me a bit of a rough time about my weight. No shit…I know I most definitely wasn’t ace-ing the “looks” department at school, but I swear some people have no idea how teasing someone because of their weight, skin and hair colour could do. I clearly remember when a guy called me a “big, fat mushroom” because I chose to wear a more comfortable school skirt which was longer than usual. And I knew what was being said behind my back or when they thought I couldn’t hear. And well, I didn’t care too much about it…I was/am a nerd and was ok with just sinking into my studies. But you know what? At the gym last week, this guy made a point to smirk at me while I was doing my workout. Not in a nice way…in a way that he was mocking me just like high school. And you know…I’ve accepted who I am since high school-what was disappointing to me was seeing that some people are still stuck in the same mentality they had in high school. While you’re still making fun of the same people for the same things, many people who you picked on have gone on to do great things. The list is endless of how many of us “nerds” or whoever got given shit at high school who are now successful businessmen/women, teachers, travellers, soldiers and have such an amazing life ahead of them. And I really respect them.
Anyway, apologies for the post being a bit out of whack than usual, and perhaps a bit more personal. Thanks for those who read the blog, even those who are just stalking it to find out what I’m up to these days, haha.
More updates soon 🙂