Hello again! Time for another update, it seems 🙂
-Curves Complete is going relatively well. We’re getting new equipment at the gym from this week (today will be the first day I get to use it), and I’m looking forward to hopefully working harder at the gym because of it. Over the week, the staff are going to monitor whether we’re using the machines correctly, so it will be a good review to see if there’s any machines I could be using better.
-On the same note, I wanted to clarify why I’m making such an effort to get “healthier”. The main reason is for my future: to ensure I will be in the best health possible, have controlled diabetes and to be happy. A huge part of me is also doing this for my (future) family. One day, I want to be able to be an active, healthy mum who is a positive influence and role model for my (future) children. Actually, my “getting healthy” initiative is also to ensure I even will be able to have a family: type 1 diabetes makes pregnancy a huge balancing act, where your blood sugar levels have to be perfect for the majority of the time to even have a successful pregnancy (it’s pretty bloody scary). I don’t think people realise how hard it can be for type 1 diabetics with pregnancy. Before you all freak out- this isn’t something I’m thinking about doing at present, or for a while, but it’s a goal within the next 5 years or so; therefore I have to work on my health to give my (future) children the best future possible. But overall, I want people to know that I’m not just committing to a gym to try and lose weight: I want to make future Rachel a healthy and happy one.
-I’ve actually had some crazy diabetes levels this week…hypos (low blood sugar levels) out of nowhere. I’ve been having some overnight, after the gym, even when I wake up…and a couple of days where I’ve had several. It’s so draining and exhausting, and I’ve been pretty out of it most of the week. I’m waiting to get some updates from my doctors as to if my insulin levels need to be updated since going back to the gym, but it’s just been really strange to have so many hypos. It’s hard because I have to stop everything I’m doing to treat these, and it really feels like it inconveniences everyone when it happens. But, I guess you can’t help it if it’s related to health…
-In all honesty, I’ve had a really crappy week in passing regarding finances. We’ve had so many bills to pay off, leaving us with very little money over the past month. In fact, we’ll be like this until we return from our honeymoon. But really, that’s life. My tax return estimate is also way lower than what I was hoping for, which was a little bit unexpected. I hate being worried about money (something that really is out of your control in the end), but it’s been stressing me out big time. I’ve had to really scrimp and save this month compared to normal (which has been a good learning curve, in all honesty); for example, I have been wearing my hair in a ponytail to work not just because people think it looks good…it’s because I actually can’t afford to get my hair cut. I’ve also run out of some of my make-up for work, so for the past week I’ve been having to combine different products I have in my cupboards to try and give myself some “coverage”. Going without coffee and/or a drink at work has been tough too, and I’ve had headaches most of the week because of caffeine withdrawals, plus I’ve been having loads of hypos at work (so I’ve had to make sure I bring extra food with me as there’s no way I can afford to buy it at work). Learning to completely cut costs (going without drinks at work, those takeout meals when we’re feeling lazy etc) has been tough, to be honest (I’m guessing mainly because I’m been blessed with not having to “do without” much thanks to a very generous and supportive family). I feel bad and really shouldn’t complain though, because there are so many people out there who have it worse off: they don’t even have the “luxuries” of a roof over their heads, a semi-brand new car and a overseas holiday to look forward to. I’m just not used to having to budget to the extreme, and with unexpected bills this week, we’ve had a harsh reality check.
-In contrast though, I am so thankful for family and friends who have helped us out with the above; whether it be making the effort to come visit us (so we save petrol), or socialise on the cheap. We’re trying to be very tight with our budget for the honeymoon to even be possible, so this has helped out big time for us. We really appreciate that others understand our saving goals, and that they still make the effort to spend time with us. Thanks to all who have helped!
-I’ve had my first week of study in my Masters come and go in the blink of an eye, and I’m already behind. Having so many hypos made studying hard as I was exhausted. However, I did manage to watch all the lectures and do all of my readings. I still have to complete and submit my weekly summary, watch two videos and answer questions on the readings though. I’m really hoping I’ll be successful in receiving some sort of Study Leave allowance through work, as I’m getting worried about already being behind in study.
-Also, the readings for the subject I’m currently doing (Gender in Asian Societies) have made me a little sad/disappointed about being a female and the inequality that is still present in society. I will admit something that may seem profound and a bit crazy: I feel that my career will grind to a halt when I decide to have kids. This is because I’ve seen it happen to so many females before. This is why I feel I need to try so hard and want to advance as far as I can career-wise, because I have this terrible gut feeling that it’s going to be so hard to progress once I’ve had kids. Yes, I understand that priorities change once you have kids, and work tends to not be as important, but I’m concerned that I will lose opportunities once I decide to have kids. There also still seems to be a lack of authoritative roles for women, which is concerning. Maybe it wasn’t a good idea starting with a subject about gender…oh well.
-I’ve started playing some Zelda again in the 3DS game A Link Between Worlds in an attempt to relax and get some gaming time in between everything. I had been stuck at the “gale” dungeon for ages, but finally figured out where I was up to: it was a situation where I hadn’t played for ages and forgot where I was up to/where I had to go. I’m now up to the alternate world, which is awesome. For some reason, it feels like this game is “easier” than other Zelda games before it. However, it has some pretty epic music behind it! After receiving a pressie from the hubby of a Zelda sword/shield pendant collection, I’ve been really wanting to play some Zelda. I’m aiming to work on my games in A Link Between Worlds and Skyward Sword for now.
And that’s about it for this week’s update! Thanks for reading 🙂