Well, with the long weekend, I get to write this update from home whilst eating a very yummy gluten-free hot cross bun (Happy Easter, BTW). Here’s this week’s update:
-Well, I’m getting married in 5 DAYS! I am seriously so excited, and cannot wait to start this new journey in life with my “nerd-for-life”. We are so keen to start sharing all of life’s adventures together, and our wedding day is going to be our massive celebration to share with our family and closest friends. And, you know what? I’m really not feeling stressed about it anymore. As of a couple of days ago, everything has been sorted and we just need to set up the reception later this week. There literally is *nothing* for me to stress over, and I’m quite surprised that rather than being more stressed towards the end, I was quit stressed earlier on in planning, and am now calm and relaxed.
-My foot has improved dramatically since last week. Over this long weekend, in particular I’ve noticed it’s stronger and (hopefully) almost completely recovered. I’m able to walk around, and even stand for periods of time, where it’s only beginning to hurt when I’ve been pushing myself too hard or at the end of the day. I’m feeling confident about walking around for my wedding, and being able to return to full-time work hours upon returning from our mini-honeymoon. I am so relieved that things will be back to normal soon, including heading back to Curves to continue my progress for a healthier life.
-I’m going to propose something which could be classified as a bit WEIRD and OUT THERE right here. I have been contemplating about friendships for a long time now since finishing university. I am very eager to have a close group of female friends, which I haven’t really had since school/uni days. That being said, it has most likely been my fault for several strong female friendships I had drifting apart, such as being too immature/dramatic at the time, not dedicating enough time to friends over boys, or being selfish with my own needs before my friends’ needs. It’s been such a blessing getting more guy friends through Ray and our shared interests, but I really still don’t have as many close female friends as I’d like to have. That being said, I am very thankful for the number of close female friends I do have who I know are completely genuine (these are slowly growing, yay!). Anyway, I was thinking, however, that I really should reflect on all the females I used to be close friends with, and maybe catching up with those people and strengthening old friendships. THEREFORE, what I’d like to propose is this: if you are one of my female friends who I used to be close to (regardless of how/why we drifted apart) and you’d like to catch-up or have a chat, feel free to send me a message via Facebook or so. I’m very open and would love to hear from you 🙂
-Since the previous weeks, where I mentioned my lack in body confidence, I’m making a commitment to myself. Once my married life begins, I want to commit to being “myself” more in the way I dress and style myself. Too long have I chosen clothing which is black or dark colours because I’ve fallen into this society “myth” that it’s the only colour that looks good on plus-size ladies. Too long have I strayed away from fashion which I’ve loved, but have been led to believe by magazines is a no-go for fuller-figured women. Too long have I not had the confidence to wear clothing which I love, as I feel that I couldn’t “pull it off”. So, once my last name changes, hopefully so will my attitude towards how I feel about my appearance. I’m going to make an active effort to start wearing and looking like what I feel on the inside: a curvy, quirky, retro-inspired young woman with nerdy and Asian influences. I’m going to start making clothes to “fit” me, rather than being defined by store sizing. I’m going to give that green velvet 60s dress a go as my next sewing project. I’m going to do a “cull” on my wardrobe and clear out any items which were my “safe” items to cover myself up on a crappy day. I will also seek guidance from tailors and seamstresses for when my clothing needs to be altered to fit me better. And I’m going to make a promise to myself to stop buying as many black clothing items just because it’s “safe”. I know it will be a gradual progress to be completely confident with myself, but it all starts with one step. I’m ready to give it a go 🙂
-I’ve been getting my nerd on quite a bit this week. I’ve been reading several books, including The Crystal Shard (and ongoing project), as well as playing Oblivion for way more hours than I care to admit to. Ray and I have also been playing quite a bit of old-school Mario (in prep for the wedding, perhaps?) We also went on a massive cleaning spree this week, where I was able to rediscover a whole selection of books I was saving to read during holiday times, so I’m hoping to read quite a few books over the next week or two.
Well, that’s about it for this week in passing. I’m not sure when I’ll be able to post my update next week due to being on my MINI-HONEYMOON (yayayayayay!), so apologies if the post is delayed. Thank you to all who take the time to read my updates, and to those who pass on words of advice and encouragement. As I am about to start my married life, I am feeling happier than I’ve ever been as an adult. I cannot wait to share it all with you 🙂